“Paige, we don’t know what the future holds, but we know who holds the future,” my sweet grandmother said. She has spoken this over me throughout this difficult year. It has been a beautiful reminder from such a beautiful person.
However, when she last said this, I realized something…
I am afraid of the future. I am afraid of being alive and I am afraid of dying. This year taught me that no matter how much I try to plan and control every little thing in my life, God is fully in control. This year has also filled my mind with death and devastation as hundreds of thousands have lost their lives. With 2021 approaching, I have felt myself becoming more and more anxious about the unknown in the future.
All of the exciting things I thought were going to happen in 2020 did not happen, and I think I am scared for that happen again in 2021. I find myself wanting to be in control of my future, but I also realize that that will NEVER be possible. I need to let go and surrender my future to God.
In the midst of freaking out about this, I felt God speak to me. I just kept hearing Him say, “Paige, I will be with you.” He reminded me that regardless of what this year brings, good or bad/death or life, He will be with me.
So… This is me being completely vulnerable with you all as I share my thoughts and fears because I want you to know that you are NOT alone if 2020 has made you feel the same way about the future. I want us all to put our trust in the Lord. I have surrendered all of this anxiety to Him because I know He has plans for ALL of us. He will never leave nor forsake me, and I believe in a God who provides for His church.
“The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” Deuteronomy 31:8
Love you all… 2020 has been more difficult than I ever could have predicted, but God has been with us for it all. If you are feeling alone, tired, anxious, and/or scared, talk to God. Keep going. He will deliver you from this.
I am not going to say that 2021 is going to be incredible because I have absolutely no idea what 2021 will bring… However, I feel PUMPED to wish you a Happy New Year.
Happy 2021 everyone!! Thanks for supporting the beginning of Grace Given Food. I appreciate you all so much! I pray for health, happiness, and blessings for you all in 2021.
P.S. I encourage you all to watch Passion 2021 tonight online!! It is free… I’ll be watching 🙂 Go sign up now here!!